Saturday, April 9, 2011

Another revelation.

30 years old. So far, so good. I've almost been in NYC for a year now, and I'm still alive and able to pay my rent. Neither of which I take for granted by the way! I'm actually currently in Raleigh, NC where I just judged a dance competition, and I will leave back for home in just a few hours.

The other day, I had a wonderful conversation with a friend of mine who has been living and working in the city for a number of years. After the conversation with her, I had a wonderful realization. I'm ready to allow myself to have a life again-within my budget of course! I've given New York almost a full and pretty darned painful year in many ways, and I've decided to allow myself to venture out again.

Here are the facts. I've been auditioning as much as I'm able for months. Nothing has opened up as of yet. I've gone through a wave of emotions, survived my first unemployed winter, and it's now spring. I LIVE IN THE BEST CITY IN THE WORLD!!! I realized when talking to my friend that if I don't let myself live in the in betweens, I'm going to miss out on so much. Let work come when it will. Have I proven that I am tough enough to take the risks necessary to go for it? Heck yeah! At a certain point, it's not up to me! I've talked about this before, but now, I finally get it!

So, I'm pleased to say that I'm going to begin to have a little fun! After all, it's spring time, and I just celebrated a milestone! I'm quite a lucky guy! Who knows, maybe stuff will happen when I least expect it if I relax and don't look for it so hard as the cliche states! Don't worry, I'm still gonna bust my butt at auditions, but I'm going to try to enjoy all the stuff that surrounds those brief minutes out of my life and let "life" itself dictate my happiness. NOT the time in front of the judges.